Recognizing my Humanity

it's okay to feel sad, angry, cheated or whatever that it is you feel, I tell my self. They are emotions, they make you human , without emotions you are just an animal or maybe even just an insect.

Today I recognized my humanity. I stayed quite and think. I feel - sad, angry and alone.

In the end it will only be me who will stand for me in times of trouble just as how it always happens.

have i forgotten how to feel loved or have i ever felt it before, do I even know how it is. A different kind of love.

The Past And The Future

Today, I stand in the middle of the past and future. The year that was and the year that will be.

Looking back I thank the Lord of the massive ways that he has shown how he moves in my life. How he tells that I am here, do not be afraid. He has manifested his presence in so many ways this year things that changes at the nick of time, that only he can do.

I thanks God for letting me travel with family and friends. The experience is truly priceless, from Dad's first trip abroad, an island getaway with friends and secluded beach escape with office mates.

I thank God for giving the chance to work again and validate that I can still do it.

I thank God for my Family.

This year may not be perfect just like any year that would come but we must make sure that we make the most out of it.

2015 is going to be my year for valuing my self and preparing for long term goals.

I aim to shoot more weddings and practice my photography more than ever.
I am to buy a good computer for editing, a backup camera and other things that I need to shoot better.
I aim to save money for my US Trip.
I am to lose weight and become fit.(wag magreact for health reasons ito... ang hirap na kaya huminga)

Lastly, Travel.

Travel may be the last priority for me this 2015 as it will be my prep year for an epic travel across the continental North and Central America.

How about you? What are your plans?

Days Of Christian Prosecution: A Call For Prayer and Action, Specially For Catholics

Today the Christian church faces prosecution, again. When Christianity started growing in its early years they were heavily prosecuted by the Roman Emperors until the time of Constantine, the first Christian emperor of Rome ordered that Christians should be tolerated.

In these early days after the Apostles of Christ on Pentecost received the Gift of Tongues (where they were able to speak in different languages), went out and spread the good news of Christs establishing churches (a group of believers) most of which still exist today. These churches that the other Apostles founded (ex. Paul, Andrew, Peter, John) went as far east and north from Jerusalem in places such as Africa, Lebanon and yes Iraq and Syria, where the ISIS (Islamic State of Iraq and Syria) are prosecuting Christians right now.

Special Call For Catholics 

Why am I calling specially to Catholics. Christianity in Syria and Iraq dates back to the days of the Apostles and these churches that continues to exist such as the Chaldean Catholic Church (planted by the Apostle St. Thomas) in Iraq and the Syriac Catholic Church (planted by St. Peter the Apostle). These churches may celebrate the Mass in different ways (Maronite, Eastern Catholic Rite or Liturgy of St. James the Apostle) but they are our brothers that are in communion with the Bishop of Rome, The Pope.

I call that we pray for them who do not forsake their Christian faith even on the shadows of death. I ask our Christian brothers to pray for your fellow Christians that are prosecuted in these countries.

Let Us Pray

Lord God, in the mighty Name of your only begotten Son, Jesus, we pray for our brothers and sisters in the prosecuted land of Syria and Iraq. Protect them from the dangers and prosecution from professing their faith in You.


Weight Loss Struggle: How I Learned The Difference of KCal and Cal The Hardway

It has been proven that every time I get my self to work in a corporate..... well... call center setting that I gain weight, that is a fact. Of all the times that I have gain weight this is the worst weight problem that I have encountered.

When I started working for my current company I weighed about 180 pounds with clothes on. Today, I last weighed my self at about less than 200 pounds.

I am really alarmed with my weight and I am really worried. Each time I fly I feel this difficulty of breathing when I slouch, I can't sleep with my seat reclining on a plane. It feels like my stomach is pressing hard on my lungs and heart causing the shortness of breath, even if I have stopped smoking casually for months now. I have difficulty tying my shoes or reaching for the edge of my pants to fold it the way I want to.

It is scaring me.

I don't want to die fat.

I tried and still trying to go on a specific diet and because I have a hyper-acidic stomach, I cant make my self starve or go on a lemon juice like diet. As per my doctors advice I can now only drink either Milk or Water. I actually have dramatically dropped drinking sodas, like as in rare. I do not crave for it when I eat.

Instead of Tea Drinks that are high on sugar I cut down my rice intake and alter my lunch food with sandwiches instead of full meals. Since that I cant take anything but milk, I keep my self hydrated in the office with at least two packs of Oishi Oaties.

This milk product is called Oaties because it has finely ground oats mixed with the milk. Then one time out of now where I decided to look at the label and read the nutritional facts. My jaw dropped I was chugging down two packs of 200Kcal a day that is a total of 400,000 calories a day!!! Mind you the recommended daily allowance each day is just 2,000 calories. I stopped by that time I have gained at least fifteen pounds.

Now I continue my battle, I am even thinking of consulting a doctor because maybe there is something wrong with me that no matter how I go on a diet or exercise for that matter I would still gain weight. Well I hope nothing serious.

I am going back to they gym to run at least 45 minutes a day. I will try to work more on my diet... though I don't know what to eat anymore. Seriously, I am scared now at this point.

I hope that I could lose weight soon. Not just for my looks but most importantly for my own functionality and health.

For Good

For the first time I don't know how to handle my emotions, this, is one of the things I fear in my life.

I found this song to mean something but after talking to a friend I was told about the things that I knew it just hit me.

It could have been easier if the situation was that the people that I need to forget just died or nothing ever happened.

How do you ever forget about a daughter? How do you let go?

Can somebody just shoot me.............. 

Tong Printers: Reliable Printer Repair Shop

Good service deserves a good review and this is what Tong Printers deserve.

A couple of days ago I thought of having one of my dead printers repaired so that I could use something to print documents so I searched all over the net to find a good repair shop that is near my place. I texted one of them and I got a reply back asking some more details, they asked me if it still turns on, I said no. They replied back and told me that if it doesn't turn on it would be better for me to buy a new one instead. I really appreciate the fact that they didn't ask me to come over just to tell me that they'll check and eventually charge me with some.

I searched for my other broken printer and checked if it still powers up and it does! The next day I brought both of my printers to their shop so we could repair one and have the other become a spare part.

As soon as I got to their small booth they inquired more about what happened and told me about how they work if they are able to fix it they will charge 400 pesos and if not a diagnostic fee of 200 pesos is asked, I say that is fair enough. If there are parts that need to be replaced it would be charged separately, good thing I didn't threw my old printer away.

After they fixed my printer they asked me if I would like to have my continuous ink set up properly for a fee of 200 pesos and I said sure! I wanted to bring home my printer in good working condition and I don't want to think about setting it up anymore and yeah the price really is fair enough, not only that but they also made a waste tank for my printer's ink so that it wont overflow in the printer.

I brought my printer without any ink so they asked me if I wanted to buy some and I said yes but they used their ink cartridge to make sure that my printer is working first to make sure that the ink wouldn't just go to waste, now that's honesty!

I am really satisfied how they handled my concerns and even gave me information that would help me maintain my printer working properly and I really appreciate that! I wouldn't hesitate coming back to this place for my printer needs

Here are their details if you'd like to give them a visit.

The kid that killed it with a One Direction Song

Okay first off I AM NOT A ONE DIRECTION FAN but I am of this kid!

Incredible control with the perfect song for his voice and yeah him being in love really shows in how he sang this song. So here's Lorenzo Miguel Sinco.... I think we just heard the grand winner here... just need to work on his charms though....