Do you know me? or the more important question right now is do I know me?
the past months have been life changing for me. All of my dreams is now in limbo or may be worst gone. I don't really know where its going to go.
Last April 8, 2010 the day that should have been one of the best days of my life became the worst. That was the day when I got my US visa approved after a long time of preparing for it.
But on that same joyous day, I woke up around past 8 pm because of a text message. She was asking me what happened to my visa application and that if it was for Canada or the US. I was trying to call her but she wouldn't answer. Then I asked her don't you want me calling you. She answered back but avoiding my question. So I kept on asking till she finally said "Yes, I'm sorry".
I asked her what was the sorry for, then she answered back starting with a reminder that the package that she sent already was at their house in Marikina then she dropped the bomb. She said if we could cool things off a bit.
I was devastated, I started calling her but she wouldn't answer still but I kept on calling until she finally did. She said that this is the best thing for the both of us.
I could understand how it is going to be good for us and that I could fulfill my dreams if we do this just like how she said.
im sorry i cant seem to finish this blog its too painful for me. forgive me readers if i have to leave it like this unfinished.