Until When?

Woke up crying again. Until when will I dream about these good dreams that are now just nightmares. I badly miss my daughter.

Needs to get direction. Now.

It has been two years, and I am beaten down to my knees. I am tired. So tired.

Blue Bird Answer Key

The bird that flew into your room seemed like a symbol of good fortune, but suddenly it changed color making you worry that happiness would not last. Your reaction to this situation shows how you respond to difficulties and uncertainty in real life.

1. Those who said the bird stays black have a pessimistic outlook . Do you tend to believe that once a situation goes bad it never really returns to normal? Maybe you need to try thinking if this is as bad as it gets, it can’t get any worse. Remember, there’s no rain that doesn’t end and no night so dark that there’s no dawn the next day

2. Thos who said the bird turns blue again are practical optimists. You believe that life is a mix of good and bad and that it doesn’t pay to fight against that reality. You accept adversity calmly and let things run their course without undue stress or worry. This outlook lets you ride out the waves of adversity without being swept away

3. those who said the bird turns white are cool and decisive under pressure. You don’t waste time on fretting and indecision even when a crisis develops. If the situation gets too bad, you feel it’s better to cut your losses and look for another route to your goal rather than getting bogged down in needless grief. This proactive approach means that thing seem to just naturally go your way.

4. Those who said the bird turns golden can be described as fearless. You don’t know the meaning of pressure. To you every crisis is an opportunity. You might be compared with Napoleon who said “… impossible: the word is not French” But be careful not to let your boundless confidence get the best of you. It’s a very fine line between fearless nd foodhardy. So what did you answer? And what do you think about the interpretation? From Kokology, The game of self discovery.


I really don't watch a lot of TV these past few months. But about a week ago I chanced upon an episode of Glee.  I am not sure if that was just a re-run.

But anyways, So there was this part where Santana and this guy from that other group where the gay guy's boyfriend came from... (sorry I haven't memorized their names.... will put it in the comments??? heheh) had a duel singing Smooth Criminal of Michael Jackson. I really liked this version done with the two cello guys!

Here's that video

Those two guys really rocked it out and this version of smooth criminal is crazy! The song just kept on playing inside my head.

I researched more and found out who's version was it really. Here's what I found.

Awesome as they are I craved for more.... 

Alanis Morissette: Changing through time

Alanis Morrissette would probably one of the most undeniably strong artist in our time. I can still remember the days when I would sing along at the top of my lungs to the tune of her song Ironic. 

Aside from Ironic, one song really sticks into my head , Your House. I first heard her sing this song at the VMA on 1996 or 1997 (I think)  singing it Semi A-Capella the the melody just stayed playing in my head for hours.

Here's the song that I am referring to.
Your House

She was able to reinvent her self yet you know that it is still her style......

Overcoming Hurdles, Conquering Mountains

Backlogs that's what I have right now. I have my photos for my 365+1 project all piled up in a folder. But yeah I am still not blogging about it today.

What I want to talk to you about my recent experience. 

About a week or two ago a friend opened an invitation to join him on a trip to Zamabales. He told us that part of our itinerary was to trek Mt. Pundaquit and traverse to Anawangin Cove. I asked if it was going to be a difficult trek and he replied that it's just a minor climb. 

As we got to Zambales there actually was an option where I could have just went off with the outrigger that we rented to bring our things to the cove. But I decided to join them in their trek thinking that it's gonna be an easy one.

Off we go and started walking, we passed by a dead riverbed covered with lahar. After abot an hour the terrain gets little more challenging with some steep hills that we had to go through. Upon reaching the midlands I can feel the fatigue already, I could hardly breath. 

Halfway between the midlands and the summit was the hardest. The trail began to be steeper

Reaching the summit was a relief. I even thought that I would not get down the mountain alive. But just like in life there are things that are unexpected to come on our way. They may be mountains high but unless you try you would never really know that you can't do it. Once you have over come that hurdle and conquered that mountain high challenge I guarantee you the view from the top is gonna be awesome.