Death

They say that when you dream about death it symbolizes a new beginning. True enough I have dreamed of it quite a few times and a new beginning did follow. 

After being hospitalized for about five days and some rest for a few more, I finally came back to work, but the night before I was suppose to work again I felt something, I felt as if I was about to die. I thought that it could really be my last day on earth so I wrote up a Last Will and Testament assigning my stuff (hahaha as if it's a lot).

The view that I ain't gonna miss 

I felt at peace after writing it down and so I slept. The following day I woke up (late) and headed to work. My supervisor wasn't there and I was on my own. My access to my online tools to help customers weren't working and was just giving me a prompt that because of an extended time that I was out the access has deteriorated, or something like that.

I asked for help from some SMEs but to no avail, my access was blocked.

My supervisor came and tried to talk to me and left. She just left me hanging there trying to make things work without telling me that my access was intentionally blocked.

After several attempts I gave up and told her about the situation. She joking said "Kase Mateterminate ka na" (Because you will be terminated), that really didn't came out as a joke for me being someone who just came in from hospital confinement.
We talked about what happened why I wasn't able to advise for two days. I really don't wanna go into the details of our conversation, but the way she spoke to me is just appalling it was no way near how a supervisor should speak to his/her subordinates. One should treat each employee with respect and dignity, hindi yung parati ka nalang nakasisi sa ahente, remember that what your employee does is what management thinks that you do. When speaking with a subordinate you should make them feel that both of your share the responsibility and please DON'T LIE KUNG DI MO KAYA PANINDIGAN.

My TL told me that another department filed a memo because of something I did and then later on I heard her speak to someone over the phone that she is retracting the paper and that she is the one that filed. COME ON!!!! ano ba talaga... ang hirap kase nagmumukha kameng tanga eh di naman talaga... tandaan kung di kayang maging consistent sa pagsisinungaling wag magsinungaling. ALSO, don't do actions that you can't OWN, gagawa ka ng isang bagay di mo naman pala kayang akuin ang responsibilidad at ang bigat ng implikasyon nito? KAMMMEN!

To be fair, Mabait naman yung TL ko (on a personal level) but bait doesn't get you any farther when it comes to your career.

Hmm.... now that gives me an idea.... going back to an agent level gave me a different view of being a supervisor. How about writing a book about supervising people. what do you think?