Where do I Start?

Dreams I'm all dreams. I'm getting tired of dreaming. gonna start moving.


School's still out. stuck in my job. WHAT do I do now?

I'm getting tired of seeing people go the way that I want to take... But I'm still lucky!

At least that's the way that I think I should feel.

There are a lot of people in the country who wants to go to the places that I have been to, live the life that I have..... But damn why do I feel this freaking way!!!!!

I need to refocus.... Need to contemplate..... so many things that I need to be....

But it All goes down to one question.....

Where do I start?


My account is currently not dialing because of some complaint from the head office of our client. It really doesn't make any sense if a customer compalaints because he says that he has been called, harashed for so many times and the records would show that he has been contacted just once and the rest of the calls were all non-contacts.

So as of the momment I am stuck doing nothing and I hate it..... or do I really hate it? Well Its okay I got to relax even before the Thanks Giving break.

I plan to wash my clothes (which is a lot) during thanks giving since we really dont celebrate the holiday here in the philippines. On friday I plan to go to Subic and see the beach.

It has been a year now since I have been to the beach and I am missing it a lot! I can't imagine how can I survive without seeing it at least once every year. Its not the vacation that I am after to but what I have been longing for is the atmosphere of relaxation. Last September I and Rox went to baguio for her IELTS and of course to get some vacation. But unfortunately Baguio dissapointed us.

The place was like Manila with a slightly better weather. Its just a good thing that we didn't really went to baguio for vacation or else I'd be one sad boy!

Grey's Anatomy

I recently got the Grey's Anatomy fever... I watch it everyday (on DVD) before I go to sleep. I tried to watch it on YouTube and got this video that I really really like it :D

Seasons Of Love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In Daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure
A year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love? Measure in love

Seasons of love.
Seasons of love.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes!
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

In truths that she learned,
Or in times that he cried,
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died.

It's time now to sing out,
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love!
Remember the love!
Remember the love
Measure in love
Seasons of love!
Seasons of love.

Oh you got to remember the love,
You know that love is a gift from up above
Share love, give love, spread love
Measure, measure your life in love.

The GABE!!!!

Found this Guy on the net. He's hella lot of talent!

Saturday Shift

It's officially a Sunday! but I'm just starting with my saturday shift and I have all the time in the world to blog here in the office.

Yesterday, I was able to ran across an old lost friend. We talked about her life, what happened to her when she suddenly dissappeared from our place. Well, thank God I ran into her! I was so enlightened with what she shared. I suddenly realized what are the blessings that I have that other people just dream about. It also made me realize that I should work harder and be thankful of what I have right now.

That encounter also made me want to push my self to achieve my goals in life. To exert every effort that I could.

Earlier, Roxan called me up and told me that she's going to meet with the recruiter from Glendale in California. I was so excited to hear the news, because I was the one who found about the agency through the internet.

It was that one time when I was surfing the internet when I incidentally came across an ad. for an agency in Glendale. Well of course it caught my attention because it is near Roxan's Aunt's house in the US. So I gave the informtion to Roxan and she told about it to her father who is also in the states.

Then today as I said a while ago roxan had contacted the recruiter who inccidentally is here in the philippines for a couple of days. I think it is destiny for her to get intouch with the agency, it feels like everything was unplanned..... by man.... and planned....... by GOD :)

EQ Exam

Heck!!! I dont even know if this is true but it was fun try it your selves!

Your EQ is 133
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

what happened and what are my plans

This is the first time that I'm going to blog this month, and hopefully it wont be the last one like last month! Hmmm.... so what do i have to share with you this time?

Well i went back to the school that i transffered from St. Augustine and good news is that we are to start our classes this week.

At work we everything is doing quite well but of course some glitches every now and then.

I need to finish up planning on how i would go about my finances maybe my priority for now would be my studies and to buy a laptop.

No More Luck :(

Okay.. I haven't been able to blog a lot these past few months. The IT department just cut off the internet connection for browsing in the office. so all i've got for now is for YM. I dont really know on how i would go about blogging now that i dont have the internet connection in my pc. maybe i wont be blogging that much any more. I really enjoy sharing my thoughs to all of you and sharing my feelings. It makes me feel that some one out there would feel that they are not alone. I just hope that i could do something about this matter really soon.

by the way, I'm planning to buy a laptop computer, I saw one in StarMall and its not that expensive. Actually its just 18,000.00 pesos and its already a pentium III computer. i think thats a very good deal and it would help me blog a lot since i could hook it up on WiFi coz there's a Wi Fi Hot spot near the office. *cross fingers*

till my next encounter..... blogger

Figuring things out

Just turned 23 this year. But something still is missing. I've got my whole life figured out and I know what I want to be in 10 years from now....... or do I really? Lets see.
Here's my life plan so far:
In a year's time I should be done with my LPN studies. After that I should start reviewing for IELTS (International English Language Testing System) and Once I'm done with my IELTS, I'll start studying for NCLEX (National Council for Licensing Examination) Once I'm done with all of that which would take about one and a half years I need to start securing for an employer in the Los Angeles. As soon as I get an employer I'll be processing my VISA which would take for about a year and then I'll Fly to the U.S.
As soon as I get settled in the United States I and My Baby Rox should work hard enough so we could send some money over our families here in the Philippines. Rox's goal is for her Family to secure their own house here in Manila then another house for her family there in L.A. . As for me I need to generate enough funds for my family's debt to get paid off and then have our house in Valenzuela renovated.
Once all of those are done I and my Baby could now marry and have KIDS!!! wow :D well when i get married I want to buy a beach property where i could put up a small hotel and buy a condo in manila.
I guess that's about it but for retirement.... I haven't made any plans just yet......
It sounds like I have it all planned out but i still feel that something is missing in my life maybe the fulfillment of my identity as an artist is the missing part that i am looking for. Well as of now I still have to figure it out.

15 September 2006

It has been a long time now since I last posted. That is because IT has taken away by internet connection in the office. So right now I am blogging from am undisclossed area where no one will know. lolz.


I just found a new school for Practical Nursing. They are offering the course that I can actually finish it in a years time only!!! WOW!!! then after that I can take the NCLEX-PN already!!! I am so excited that is why I will be attending the orientation later this morning after my shift. Goodbye St Augustine... (hopefully)

I had a conversation with a co-worker while we were on our way home on a bus. He explained to me that what I am feeling right now is very natural. He said that If you've been to a developed country, where life is easier, when you come back home you would feel that life is hard. So now I understand why am I feeling this way.

The good thing about me having the feeling of wanting to get out of the country is that I use it positively. I try to make sure that I can get a better quality of living and I think that it is very good.

Hope that I could blog more often. Honestly I miss it since and it's much more difficult now a days since my computer at home is broken and I dont have internet connection in the office :(


I want to blog about today... August 24, 2006..... I just got the realization that I am almost useless I come in to work load some leads make sure people are working send some reports and that is it.... where is the challenge to this work?!! I want to be an active part of a company.. to have my ideas implimented and respected. As of now I dont even have a supervisor's work station! and my poor agents they dont have permanent stations aswell!! I hope that i could get out of this feeling as soon as i can coz it is not healthy. It is not healthy to feel miserable to feel useless to feel invaluable ... hope sa next blog ko masaya na ako

Old Blog....

I got this from an old blog in my Friendster Account. I just answered some questions and oala there it is they now claim that this is my personality:

My Babies

Here are some pics that I did for my two babies actually one of them is my niece who is Lara and the other girl Alexie (the one with the American idol theme) is my daugther.

Sutpid ME!

Damn ! I can't believe that I left my hard disk at home.... all of my files for the office is stored there..... I even have my resume there and I need it today because Rox is sending some stuff over her titas at L.A. and I can't believe that I left my resume and cover letter as well.... all I can say is Stupid ME!

Moving On.... Moving Forward....

Last Monday, I Just found out who left the company then after a couple of days there were two more people who left. I dont know what is happening but it seems that everyone is trying to move forward and move on with their lives.

The last time that I blogged, I felt that I was in a Limbo, stuck at this state. But now I decided to move on as well, but not as drastic as the few people that I know who just left us. I just started looking for a new job in place far from home, far from friends, far from loved ones.

May be more than growth the reason for me moving on from the state of being that I am in right now, is to begin all over again with my life start, start setteling for good.

I want to start on a life that I want, in a place that I want. though everything wont be at my advantage, which is a given, I will make sure that I achieve what I want.

As of the momment I already did some things to start moving on, moving forward. I just got an agency that would facilitate my employment. I also just bought my insurance since when I go overseas my insurance will definitely be very expensive. I'm on the process of collating the documents that I need such as credentials and other stuff that I need as I start my new life, as well as leaving the things that I dont need or want to remember.

Right now I am so excited I just cant wait to begin all over again. I know some people fear starting over from the ground. but for me it is a chance given to begin and do better more like of a take 2 if you will.

Fun Shots

I had some fun with my agents in the office and had them pose for me..... I'm really not a fan of controlled lighting so i just used the lights in the office and had them pose under it but i think that a little photoshop would help . :D


when everything seems to be routinary, you just want to break out and do something new..... I want to start a new life. It feels that I am in a limbo that I am not growing. But I would not say that nothing good is happening to me..... actually there's a lot of things that has happened over the last few months that I am trully greatful to the Lord! I hope that I could solve my own riddle over the next week and know what is missing in me that I look for in vain.

Is It All Worth IT!?

Here I come again at the point of thinking things over if it is all worth it. Is it all worth the pain? emotionally, physically, mentally? is it? They ask too much from me things that more than one person should be responsible... things that a higher person should be responsible. At this time I can only think of one thing..... to break off..... I feel that I am chained, like a slave, I havent felt rewarded for a long time now and yet I have not complained to them, not a single word but only to my self.


At last I was able to put all of my video clips from the US together here it is :D


In College my motto on our college journal was "Step One To Success: DREAM, Its For Free Anyway! I guess the only problem with that is when you have so many dreams and have plan them but you get so confused of what to do first! I got so many dreams built already but there still are long term plans on my list that seems to be far from being accomplish. I want to give my self until I'm 30 to get to the United States to settle with Roxanne or else I'll do drastic measures to be there because i wont accept unfulfilled dreams! i believe that I am an achiever, I believe that I with the Lord make things happen, I believe all men are created equal and is only level by their Will and Faith to accomplish things. I will do things blindly while I am held by the Lord in his hands.

By The Beach I Shall Love You.....

This picture was taken in puerto galera then I edited it in PS.

Jesus Take The Wheel

I reall like this video by carrie underwood. Nice message: Jesus Take the wheel
I got this from a site and its amazing how near it is to what i believe what i am :)
Your Political Profile:
Overall: 45% Conservative, 55% Liberal
Social Issues: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

First Day in School (The Sequel!)

Today I left home without lunch (coz I was still full from breakfast) at around 1 PM. In a rush to Sta. Mesa so could catch my first class..... In Four years :). Yes, I did enroll for a second course at AMA Sta. Mesa with their Practical Nursing course..... hoping that I still could catch the professor on her way to the room I ran as fast that i could!
So I went inside the school but the school director saw and asked me to go to her office. She asked me to sign a letter acknowledging that I was only able to pay 1,000.00 pesos instead of the 18,000.00 that was printed on my receipt that i was not able to notice (tsk tsk tsk).
After that I went up straight to my first class with the excuse of the school director talking to me (hehehe) but to my surprise, I was the first student to be there....... and that's not it I was the first of the three students that was in the class..... and to top it all of the professor who also is a doctor was not in because she was on call at the San Juan Medical Center....... hmmmm...
After signing the attendance sheet the subsitute teacher told us that we could do what ever that we want since there's no one to teach us for the day so me and my new found friends decided to go down stairs and have the syllabus for that subject photocopied so we could have one each....
As the elevator opened and there she was again, the admissions officer who facilitated my enrollment with a look that would bring any good news....... and then she breaks her silence..... my class has been dissolved ....... the very reason I enrolled at Sta. Mesa was because they have afternoon classes which can accomodate my schedule.!
Well as of the momment I'm pretty pissed of because the school director would not sign my letter for transferring to another branch or shool because of reasons that I dont even know if they are valid or not ...... well I hope that tommorow the admissions officer could give a better answer..... I just hope so.

The week that was :)

It has been exactly 13 days since I last entered somthing in my blog... a lot of things had happened already and I don't think that i could really log it all today....
Well to get started i was able to enroll at AMA Computer University in Sta. Mesa yesterday and I'll be taking up Pactical Nrsing. Me and Rox also went to look for Avant which is an agency that sends nurses to the US. Unfortunately we weren't able to locate it. her dad got it from another passeger on his plane goint to L.A. .
The day before that I looked for a house where i could live while studying coz the schedule that i got starts at 2 PM and ends by 8 PM and I still have work by 1 AM, so i need a place that's near so i could get good rest. However i was unable to get one until yesterday when i saw this ad when i was standing in the LRT station in Pureza...
Last week, i got tired of transferring from one station to another so I decided to get an external hard drive. Its a good thing that I got one coz i can now have my files at home and listen to my music as well.... imagine i have 30G of music in my office computer that i dont know how i got!!!?
I also took some photos during the last few days that i wasnt able to blog which is posted in here as well... I really cant remember that much on what happened last week but it was a good week, that's all that i can recall and i think that is whats important. :)

Photos At Last!!!!!

At last !!!! I have uploaded my photos!!!! goodness i cant imagine how long it took me just to find a way on how i can upload my pics..... well anyways im happy that i already did.... also i want to thank the people who cared for us there in L.A. Michelle, Kathy, Chris and im sorry i forgot your name.... Michelle's friend :) AND MOST SPECIALLY TO AUNTE DADAY, MOMMY, AUNTIE JUDITH, TITO PAEL, TITO XAREX, LOLA PINANG, KUYA TO, ATE MARIAN, ATE ____, THE KIDS NAMELY ________ THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS!!!!! hope that when we come back you'd still accept us after messing your place hehehehe (joke!!!!).


------------> Click here to see all photos of the trip

The SUN just rosed

Just got my new phone.... i was supposed to get the nokia 3120 but the csr offered me a better deal.... so instead of being locked up with sun for 30 months they lowered it to 24 months when I opted to take the LG B2100.... Its a good deal compared to the nokia phone coz aside from all of the features that i get from the 3120 i got an extra feature!!!!! the phone actually has a cam :) and to top it all off, its available on sun cellular's lowest plan the 350 peso plan :D

06/06/06...... Is it really a bad day?

Okay.... it has been going around all over the city! Its 06/06/06 and its going to be a bad day because they relate the number combination to bad luck ! well guess again i had a ton goodluck today just look at the picture below (Picture taken 3 AM 06/06/06)! and its just one of the best things that happened to me today :)

Around the Office

Agent's work station
Pantry Chairs
The Pantry

Went around the office to take some pictures these are my faves... i like it coz it looks gud though my camera is an entry level camera :)

Worst Day Ever!!!!!!!!

Hmmmm.... this is the worst day ever !!!!!! its not that i am bitter its not that i am not happy with what happened its just that i feel most of the time i am taken for granted, unoticed and all of my hard work has gone into waste but im trying to move on the lord has better things instore for me :)

Noypi Astig!!!

Okay.... this time I admit it !!!! it has gone to take over me!!! yes ! I like bamboo (Band) OMG!!! I am really not sure why I liked the band like I have ever liked any other bands before. I literally listen to their CD (Light Peace Love) everytime i have a chance, which is most of the time! Maybe its because of the no non-sense songs that they have... every song would struck you... coz you can relate its about you!!!! a filipino .... you know what the funny thing is that it all started when i went to the states... a not so usual place (at least for me) to realize my being a filipino... or maybe its the perfect place to realize those things.... coz it was like me looking at my self from a far... for once i became an outsider looking inside.... just like how I feel bamboo (the person) wrote some of the song in this album.... ROCK ON!!!! NOYPI ASTIG!!!!

Picture Pressure

Last night at the office.... my agent saw that pictures that i took and edited on photoshop. It looked okay so he asked me if I could do some for him... i tried editing his pictures but .... i dont know it doesn't come out the way i want to, maybe because i wasn't the one who took the pics :(

The Link 1

I have made several attempts so far but have been frustrated.... i think if i put all of my pictures here its gonna be a mess so i uploaded it at my own site just at the links below :)

On the way to the US


Okay! i finally have a place to put my pictures and journal my life with.... I promise that I'll post my photos from the US soon! I owe the people who took care of me while i was there Big Time!!!! Thanks SOOOOOOOOOOO Much guys!


Yes its Me..... It was like dreaming, I never thought that i could go to the US just like that.... processed my papers in less than a week and on that week's end I was off to fly. To top it all off the trip was all expense paid! It was a nice experience, but I hope that I hope that I dont have to treasure it that much. Because I would still want to go back there :)